nightmares

every day i keep on having the same one or something similar


i wake up and i cant move - there is a body on me pressing into me clawing me tight - its mouth wide open biting into my flesh

i try to move it - punch it - kick it - just hit it in any way to move it off but its stuck and wont move - like its prone and dead


very heavy tooo


i dont know where i am


i have some sense of geography but not sure what is right way up or anything

i can hear music but dont know what it is

i can hear deep breathing - snoring almost - t he kinda wet throaty gagging noise ppl snoring make - when they sound like they are gonna die

eventually i panic and shake enough to wake up

and it all becomes clear - the light is at the bottom of the bed - my room looks different cause i am sleeping on my bed - i thought i was on a sofa this time cause - i had the sheets pulled back and to the right so they were bunched up

and the music that was playing that was horrible and scarying me - is something on my hifi - it was clear when i was asleep but - i just didnt recognise it - its all ambient stuff today.... and i heard it clearly - just didnt recognise it


and the big dead heavy slobbing thing ontop of me biting into ma flesh - well i saw abit of its face this time

loooked like me.



i've had this every day i've got back from glade - on monday... maybe 3 or 4 times... i think its the heat - combined with everythin i got inside me - and that i am lying on my back i never lie on my back cause i get nightmares... almost allways.



its fuckin horribble i wish it would stop

its 11 30pm when i am reposting this for ma blog - i'm goin bed in a bit and feel abit nervous about it :|